In the eventuality, the occasion. Scrap that. When we arrive here I will tell you what to do. Just write and don’t let your mind talk and we will tell you the story…
It started in the mountains she cried out but he did not hear her.
She cried out, but he did not hear her,
she called again. This time he heard her and he came to her. And under the Ponderosa Pine that smells like vanilla, they held each other and there was nothing else on earth that mattered.
And there was nothing else on earth that matters.
And with each deep breath they inhaled and exhaled love. The brown pine needles coated the forest floor like a blanket, a soft blanket. They stood in embrace and breathed. After so long, after such a long time apart they made love under the vanilla pine and on the blanket of pine needles with the smell of forest and the birds chirping. And as they connected as their bodies manifested their spiritual connection they were one and this is the point.
This is the point. Oneness.
His skin was soft and smelled of earth her breath was sweet and tasted like raspberries. They finished and they lay there beside each other looking up at the patches of blue sky visible between the ever high branches of the ancient tree that almost touched the heavens.
They watched the clouds float, dancing their freedom across the sky. The birds chirped, light-heatedly and the forest breathed with their connection.
While there was pleasure in this intimacy, obviously, it was not the common conception of orgasm, it was not pornographic, it may not have even been erotic, it was heavenly, it was divine, it was truth manifest and out of this moment a life was formed, and that life is you. Don’t be scared this is a good story because you are here with us now and we love you.
And this child is special because she listens, she has always listened and this is why we are here now. So go on go deep and don’t be frightened we will always be here to guide you. So the child will grow, as children do, and the world will impact her, as the world does, and the parents will go their separate paths, as individuals do…but the girl will always listen. There will be some years when she is too noisy to hear, but we are still there and she will return to listen and these will be our best times, because we love her, we love you. The girl lived all over the world and she shapes her identity somehow from these travels, she doesn’t yet know that is not at all what makes her who she is…..but she will find out.
So the young couple, they love each other and the mother with her long chestnut colored hair and matching eyes, she stroked her belly with you in it and the sun shines down on her from behind casting all kinds of beautiful golden light, and shadows abundant. She holds her belly and smiles down at you, as you who are part of her. And at this time she is soft, she is gentle and she has not yet become who you will later know. But it is important that you know that once she was very soft and that always she loves you very much. So you grew inside her for the many months it takes a child to learn to breathe its own air and one day in the winter under large fluffy snowflakes, the sort that fall to the ground slowly and immediately create a blanket of white, on this winter morning you came into this world a woman. And the two of you were women together, though for many years you were also a child.
Your daddy loves you too, you are ‘the apple of his eye’ and it’s this love that will someday lead you apart, but that is for its own purpose as well. You will see in time.
So the couple did not live happily ever after, well not together as a couple. After some years when you were a small child, around 4, they caused each other more pain than they did joy, and it was time for them to learn new lessons. So they went on separate adventures and you will go to live between them as a part of their adventures and these adventures will form a part of your memory and a part of your character, so you see this was also necessary. Everything that happens is necessary, but you know this.
Your father, he is a ‘good’ man. Good is not for anyone to judge, but for a person to live up to and he will try to be good, he knows little on the subject, but he will feel his way through life, as you will later, and the wake of a person that lives like this is often turbulent and those around that are not in tune will fall behind and be made sick by the waves. You don’t need to be one of those people. You are a woman, you are your mother’s and your father’s creation. You came to this world as an expression of love and you will live that love abundantly. But there are also lessons to be learned. There is no perfection.
Your mother, she loves him so insanely. She was old but young and irreverent. She did not care what happened to her, she wanted to dive into this adventure, this love journey with your dad. And this is his value. Have you not wondered why he has ‘had’ so many women, why they are all so attracted by him? He is powerful and his manner of living is one that so many want, but the reality is they are too afraid. So he is always looking for a counterpart and they are always looking for a lover but he cannot do what does not feel right and what feels right is always changing. So your mother learned so much, but she is wounded and she does not want to be so free any more. She wants things to make sense and to be obvious and simple and this is a good choice too. This is the choice that feels good for her. So once they were very similar people, souls connecting below a 100-year-old pine tree, and now they are very different people…that is what we do, we evolve. You will change too, you have changed so much already.
And now you are in love, so many years have passed in your time, you have learned many lessons. You will learn more. You will also create out of this love and new life will grow inside you. This life, this being, this human spirit will also listen. You will teach her to listen even though your mother did not teach you. And with every generation you will get better at listening and this is the point.