My transformation out of the doldrums and back into inspiration was probably slow and iterative, although it feels now like a sudden bolt of lightning. Looking back there were a few moments that were particularly transformative, indications that my gears were starting to turn again, and watching this video was one of those moments. My amazing, long-time friend sent me the video link on Whatsapp with a message along the lines of, ‘…Made me think of you. I’ve known you for so many years and you continue to amaze me.’ This message reached me at such a pivotal moment, in my deep funk I could not see why on earth this friend would be impressed or amazed by me. I was resistant and hesitated to watch the video because it was long and might distract from obviously more important Facebook scrolling time. I watched it regardless and tears flowed. I felt itchy and twitchy and annoyed and happy and frustrated and elated and 100 other contradictory feelings and within all of that confusion, it felt GOOD to feel SOMETHING other than blah. I shared the video with all my friends and of course on FB and now I share it here.
If the song of my heart ceases to play can I survive the silence?